No much confident...
Dunno y,
i used to be so independant when since i started applying for jobs (part-time/full-time)
I seem to lost it...
I panic when i went for JAL & emirates...
y???
*JULES* *BUCK UP!!!*
**REGAIN YA CONFIDENT LEVEL!!!**
*** JULES CAN DO IT!!***

Dear, no worries...
jules will regain my confident & get a job...
jules love dear, thnks dear for ya company & encouragement..

*muacks jules* *jules love all* *muacks all*

*confused*
Was i wrong in the relationship...
Was it meant to be this way?

It never started with a "woo-ing" session,
first 3 mths was living hell....
I seem demanding, & he seem giving in....
After the 3 mths, from an "unsought" product to a "convenience" product...
A necessity in my life!
I know he's trying, trying soo hard, better & dear now & den...
thnks..... i appreciate it!

Demanding?
or just he's not what i expect...
He's not kind of person who will sure send his girl home...
He's not the romantic person...
Thus, its unfair to demand for something out of his context....

Realised that, maybe i need to accept the fact..
dunno if u suffered much frm this....
i hope u dun......
Shall we continue with it ?
It hurts me to quarrel always,
hurts me to see u trying so hard in the relationship....

Love u, thus i hope u nt suffer....
Love u, thus i wish u better....
Let me know k?
love you......

*muacks*


P.S : Sorry for my way of delivering the msg... Confusion's over...
I love & treasure my darling... Our relationship grew stronger as days passes...
Love dear....*muacks*
12.30am 25/04/2005

i cant keep working at the pub!!!
i look shagged, horrible!
I seriously need to move on!

Realised that waiting for news of applications is juz not ME!
i cant wait hoplessly, helplessly...
i need to go job hunting...
i can find a suitable job!
*muacks!*

Maybe, cant pin all my hopes on air stewardness...
was too nervous for JAL & Emirates....
But, was good experiences...
Reality is, i need a job....

***love all***

hihi...
its 3.31am...and i'm having gummy bears frm my fav deardear....
Poor dear, talked to him juz now..
He's tired...(back frm field camp), kanna 2 extra cos he brought insect repellant...*sob*
I miss him so much...
So sad to hear him suffer!...*sob x 10*

Yesterday, Violet told me she quit le...
Jimmy was with her... So Sweet!!
Jimmy was shielding Violet... He was always there to help violet wash dishes, help her in the job etc...
Hmmmm....

^Every girl hopes that her guy there would help, including me...^

However,
based on individuals... *kee*
I know my dear's trying....
thnks for effort, dear.... *muacks!!*

*i'm tired*
*jules muacks all!* *nighty!/ morning!*

hi all....
After exams, now i'm bored....
As long as i enjoy sleeping whole morning, i'm bored...
Awaken to reality by mum's screaming at 2.15pm...
haiz...

...I'm missing my darling...missing all huggies and kisses!!!...

hmmm.....
Can't help being lost!!! what should i do?
Hated myself to miss the SIA application period... *Arghh.....*
hmmm.. Luckily never got to emirates,
Not very keen too, think abt their smell everywhere including food? *yucks!*
Not too sure den, juz prayed for someone to take me in (I know it sounds desperate!*OOps!*)
After hearing Violet, i think i'm clearer of what i want...
Yes, its SIA....
thnks ger....(although she never see this...kee)
No point knocking doors of all, and hope they take me in...
But, good experience...
For emirates, i'm not those kind to fight to speak...
Not my style!!! They are soo rude!!!

I should learn to love myself....
Learn to build up confidence....
**Realise that, I"M THE BEST!!!** kee....*shy*

P.S : Guess have to learn old way, repeat 10 times a day..?? I will!!!
P.S : (almost slipped off my mind) ***Zhu buddy, HAPPY BDAY!!!!***

*jules misses darling every single minute!!!*
*jules love all* *huggies all!* *muacks!!!*

DEAR!!!
At any cost, i will keep u by my side....
*i love u, darling*
love u, need u...
huggies my sweet sweet dear...

WO MEN DOU LAO FU LAO QI le...
coming tue (05/04/2005), 2 yrs lo...
same as u, although onlee 2 yrs, feeling like its been a long long time...kee...
dear, i will never be angry with u...
u muz understand that u already a part of my life, juz like snacks....
its a neccessity for me!
i may be mad at times, but will not ignore u...
Both of us will need some time to cool down first, no pt keep arguing....
But, it would be alright the next few hours... =D

Dear's presence now is a neccessity now for me...
I dun need ya to be always by my side,
cos i know u are always there, with me....hee...
I LOVE YOU!!

P.S : Juz let me know when u wan marry me k? hee...

*juz joking* *no pressure, kae*

haizz.....
everyone listen up,
pray for me for AFA paper k?
starting frm now, pray i will get a chance to take "special paper"...
thnks!!!!

*muacks all* *jules will work hard, harder!!!*